I listen to the gentle murmuring voice
Of our city, awake despite the hour
And I linger, unwilling to return
To the television world inside — droolingmonkey

Monday, June 08, 2009

Cleansing the soul

Oh what a weekend! The tears flowed so easily as if my eyes were leaking! I didnt even know why or what set me off except maybe it was the full moon and hearing that another close friend is dying of cancer and hes only 43.He went into hospital with terrible stomach pains and he has a huge inoperable tumor in his stomach and oesophegus that explained why he cant eat..hes also lost so much weight he is hardly recognisable.He looks 70.My heart aches for his parents and his brother and his many friends that love him.he has only weeks to live and they are making him comfortable.

I cried for the loves I have lost.The beautiful ppl that have gone too soon.The tears just kept on coming.Then Mum came out with a big pot of vegie soup and a gorgeous basket of baby daffidols,out too soon and forced to grow unnaturally in a hothouse,but never-the -less greatly appreciated by me.Mum always seems to know when I need her and she never lets me down..Tho now I am worried about her too.Shes been having some health problems and wont address them cos she stubborn and doesnt want to know whats wrong! I need her in my life so much and cant bear the thought of losing her too.

But there was joy too:) My grandson Ez won player of the day at soccer and was so proud of himself even though it meant that I had to wash the teams teeshirts it was wonderful.I shouted him and Jake to Mc Ds..even though I disapprove of it heh.

And I had a call from someone who I havent met yet who wants to meet up with me to talk about a future project that I may work on with her.
So in amongst the heartache,the pain and the tears,lots of really great things happened and I know that I am walking this path in my life with God at my side:)
Have a great week everyone xoxo

posted by butterflies @ 12:30 PM


At 6:25 AM, Blogger Oklahoma Girl said...

I am soooo sorry about your friend. That just SUCKS!! I hate cancer, takes people way too soon. I will say a prayer for his family. I know their pain.

I am stoked about your possible new endeavor. This is something about which you are so passionate, & would be a really good fit for you. Great Spirit is leading you in that direction I believe.

Congrats to the EzMan. I know you & Jake are so proud of him.

Have a beautiful week my sister. No more tears. It is time to find the purpose in this Season of your life. I love you more than words can say. Hugs!!!

blessed be...

At 8:12 PM, Blogger sexy said...

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At 4:42 PM, Blogger Cazzie!!! said...

Life throws us some major hurdles sometimes, and I too have lost a friend at that same young age only but a few years ago. Thing is, they are still a part of our wonderful lives, and see, you are suchy a wonderful person, that you can take all that is wonderful and generous about that person and embrace it. Life is that much more richer for it.
Way to go Ez, keep on doing your very best mate!

At 8:31 AM, Blogger Polar Bear said...

I love your jacket!

At 11:52 AM, Blogger Bigg said...

As much as it hurts to lose someone, it reminds us that all we have is the here and now. It's a lesson I have to relearn every day. I will wish all the best for your friend.

At 3:17 AM, Blogger Dr.John said...

Treasure the memories and then live.


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