I listen to the gentle murmuring voice
Of our city, awake despite the hour
And I linger, unwilling to return
To the television world inside — droolingmonkey

Monday, April 27, 2009

A struggle

Its so long since I blogged!
Ive been busy but thats no excuse.,,well Im trying to keep busy.
Im lonely.
There Ive said it.Its doesnt look so nice written down but at least its out there.

Of course Im happy with my life..My son has just got a scholarship for his fees
at Uni and my grandson has been here with us for a week almost.
We went out to dinner on sat night with a friend who was here from Japan.
He bought teeshirts and wine and chocolates:)

But nothing fills the empty void inside of me..I miss being in love.

posted by butterflies @ 5:28 PM


At 10:50 PM, Anonymous zingtrial said...

"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, wine in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally
worn out and screaming ‘WOO HOO what a ride!’.He!He!He!
Have a wonderful day!" :) .
Somewhere, there is someone who dreams of your smile,
And finds in your presence that life is worthwhile.
So when you are lonely, remember it's true,
That somebody, somewhere, is thinking of you. :) .
Take care .

At 11:49 PM, Blogger butterflies said...

Thankyou Zingtrial
You can have no idea how much I needed those words right now.
I believe in sliding in sideways with a wine in one had and KNOW how good the ride was:)

God has plans for me I just know it..(I just wish He'd hurry up;)

At 2:36 AM, Blogger Oklahoma Farmgirl said...

Loneliness is the pits! I have been there. I thought I missed being in love until I was again. Then I didn't want all that it entails-I found I was happiest living on my own, doing my own thing without anyone else's opinion. Now, I haven't been lonely in many years. I have Mark who calls at least once a day so I can share the trials & tribulations of my day with him, but I don't have to spend time with him unless I want. I like being home w/just "my boys".

Staying busy is a good idea. But finding something you are passionate about is the best medicine. For me it has been getting back intouch with my true, deep-down beliefs. It has been becoming active in my causes. It has been being comfortable living inside my skin & liking myself.

God does have a plan for you. It may or may not include someone else in your life, but the Plan will be wonderful. Just meditate on it & be open to whatever comes your way. You are a wonderful woman with much to give. The Path will become clear when you open yourself to hearing its call.

I love ya, my dearest sister-friend!!

Blessed be...

At 11:54 PM, Blogger butterflies said...

Thanks D..I was just having a sad day.Im much better now.Its amazing how good it is to write it down and see it for what it is..

If I am meant to meet a man who will love me and treat me as good as James did,then it will happen.
But I sure dont want to settle for less either.
I AM happy AS with my boys too and having great friends that love me.
I am blessed:)

At 9:03 AM, Blogger Polar Bear said...

I know that feeling all to well. I've never been in love, but I want it so desperately that I physically ache sometimes.

I'm feeling that a lot more these past few days.

I'm lonely too, and that is so hard for me to even admit. All my life I have prided my independance, my ability to take care of myself, but now I am tired. I'm older, and I grow more and more tired.

At 4:04 AM, Blogger Cazzie!!! said...

Butterflies, no words I can give you may give you ans solace, rest assured the wonderful times you have had stay dear to your heart. I am so pleased you have your lovely family to keep you going..stay strong..and keep in touch. Huggs :)

At 6:12 AM, Blogger Dr.John said...

You need to rejoice in the memories of the love that was and still is yours as well as the love your family gives you.


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