I listen to the gentle murmuring voice
Of our city, awake despite the hour
And I linger, unwilling to return
To the television world inside — droolingmonkey

Saturday, November 04, 2006

The Ring

James wedding ring fell off last night.When we got to New Zealand,we downsized it.Now its too big again..but being reluctant to remove anymore gold,hes decided that Im to wear it now.Hes lost 45lb..I do the witch thing off Hansel and Gretel and pinch his skin and say..oh your not ready yet;)
He asks me every day to marry him and even tho I have(on June 22nd 2002 at 2.30pm)he told me that he would ask me every day of his life.Mostly I say NO WAY..LOL but when hes very good I say yes.Last night I said yes,yes,yes!!
His liver is very swollen now and the tumor his his chest is very pronounced.His sister calls it his 3rd tit.We laugh about it.
If we dont laugh wed cry...Im cant let myself cry.When I do I get a headache,my shingles comes back and my own pain in my legs is so much more acute.
I have to have joy in my heart to bear this..Each day is a blessing.Each day I love him more than the last.Im wearing his rings now,mine and his..together..forever.

posted by butterflies @ 9:58 AM


At 10:31 AM, Blogger sleeplessinoklahoma said...

The joy is all we can hold on to. The rest is, as you say, just too much to bear. Dave & I used humor so much between us. It does help. Keeps things "normal"...whatever that is. Laughter is such good medicine. Today is all we have...& it is a blessing. I love you both so much!! Keep laughing, keep loving, keep living.
Blessed day, blessed night, blessed weekend.

Blessed be...

At 1:36 PM, Blogger Joe & Karen said...

What a beautiful picture of you two. An honour to wear his ring with yours I'm sure.
I will never forget when I met the doctors at the hospital, and they'd said there was nothing they could do, Jack was in God's hands and we decided to let him go. There was a scream from the depths of my soul, but I swallowed it. There is always time to scream later. Love, laugh, smile and say Yes every day We will be here everyday as well, and when and if the scream comes, we will be here then too.
Peace be with you today, tonight and tomorrow.
Sweet Dreams

At 8:03 PM, Blogger Chana said...

with a gulp in my throat and eyes watery i don't know what to write. there is no words.

ouch is what i felt in reading this post. i'm so sorry...

now you wear both rings..how i wished it wasn't so.

i'm glad you guys are still laughing and enjoying all the blessings..like i always say you can teach a class of so many things..wow..

this is the part i give you heck..i just read what you wrote and you should have not said all that..i'm not those words that you all write..i'm just a girl trying to love you all. that is it..and must of the time not bein able to do enough for any of you..and yes i have raised my kids but that is my joy not work and i know you know all about that.

so pls, i know you hate alot of fuzz but let me for it's all i can do besides pray...and don't throw back the attention on me for that was what i didn't want to begin with..lol..

and yes, this time i remember the will you marry me bit..lol..it wasn't too long ago i was giving you heck for not marrying him before i knew it was a running joke..:) yeap, another quarter for the blonde jar, really have one and has had to be emptied a few times i tell you.
we started with twonies ($2) well, that broke the bank fast so we went down to loonies ($1) and soon my Weezie and i found we needed to go down much more for we were putting alot of money in the jar..now we are down to quarters and soon it will be pennies, lol..

i recently told someone that there was a reason i wasn't in much of a hurry to loose my tummy..it was holding up my boobs, lol..
there has to be joking and fun in all..and i'm glad that James can say he has 3 boobs, i can't even find one!lol..

the pic is lovely. i love seeing pics from you guys..hey, i still owe you my toes ones..well, i'll have to go and fix that soon.

give James my love and hellos..and to you my heart..

At 9:14 AM, Blogger Dr.John said...

You have learneeda great lesson in being able to laugh instead of cry. It does help with the pain. Your faith also helps you hang on to that inner joy. As a pastor I walked with many down this path and I know how hard it isw. I will keep praying for both you and James.

At 10:07 AM, Blogger for what it's worth said...

Oh Dear Butterfly,
I read about you on Chana's blog as well. It is very true that we all have our burdens don't we? And just when we think ours is something we simply can not bear, we find that there are tohers who are facing so much more than we can imagine.
My heart aches for You and your James. Having lost in my life, I know the sadness that you feel.I am pleased to hear that you are sharing some wonderful time together; making laughter and memories.
It seems that when we ahre our burden's our own get lighter, and I am pleased to offer you my prayers and love through our Savior and Lord, Jesus Christ.
God Bless, and thank you for extending your prayers my way.

At 4:40 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I never really know what to say so I'll say the same thing I always say because it's always true. Butterflies, you've changed my outlook on life - because of your love for James (and his for you, so clear in his comments) I appreciate every day with my honey and never ever put off telling him or showing him. Our happiness is in a very real way thanks to the love you have. Thank you for sharing your honesty, your love, your joy. I pray for you...to keep you both at peace in every way. Love, Sandy

At 8:35 AM, Blogger Polar Bear said...

Just wanted you to know you and James are in my prayers. Your love for each other is such a joy to read about. You take such good care of each other.

love and hugs, Polar B.

At 12:15 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Perhaps I can fatten my ring finger? I have no problem with you wearing my ring, Actually the "3rd tit" is my major problem! Where can I get fitted for a bra for this thing?
Keep your spirits up, your outlook cheerful, maintain a sense of humor and know God is with us. Love you, Sweetheart!

At 2:21 AM, Anonymous zingtrial said...

Butterfly,My friend not a day has gone by without me thinking of you and James.You my friend are in my prayers daily.You are doing a great job.Keep it up .Have faith is what I wanted say but you have that faith.
Wish you both well

At 3:31 PM, Blogger Gary said...

I may be many thousand miles from you, but I am with you in spirit. Stay strong, and see all the joy that there is in this life.

At 4:14 PM, Blogger Betty said...

Keep keeping each other as I read James words. Praying for you both.

At 2:40 PM, Blogger Snidget said...

Bev - I'm still here and still reading... please no that I think about you and James daily.

Big hugs and prayers for you both.


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