I listen to the gentle murmuring voice
Of our city, awake despite the hour
And I linger, unwilling to return
To the television world inside — droolingmonkey

Sunday, October 29, 2006

This is a pic of Ezzie making a wish on a dandelion..I dont know what he wished for.

I was thinking last night about how bad things can get and how we react to them.
I have gone through some horrendous things in my life...loss of a child,death of my sister,life and death surgery,my fathers death...whatever.But the thing that Ive learnt most of all is that we never get as low again as the worst time.I have had a breakdown many years ago where I wished I was dead,then years later faced a situation where I almost died from surgery and I fought to live!
The most terrible,devastating thing that happens,will never happen again.How we felt at that time,we will never feel again.Nothing will be as bad as the worse thing again.We never go lower again than the lowest point.
God makes some promises to us.He says He will never test us beyond what we can endure.He promises us that He will always be with us and will never leave us nor forsake us.He promises us that Love conquers all things.He has never let me down.I have HOPE...always hope.
When James went forward on an altar call with his brother,the pastor prayed for a healing.And James was healed.His spirit was healed of all the pain and he was forgiven..Forgiveness is the greatest healing of all.
Each day now there is something new to hope for.Last night we hoped and prayed that James would have no delirium.And he didnt! Thank God.
Today I pray that my health will hold up as I go through this next stage with James.I hope that my legs will keep me walking.(the last specialist told me Id be in a wheelchair within 6 mths cos my veins are so bad!)
But at least I know,God will be with me no matter what:)

posted by butterflies @ 10:37 AM


At 1:56 PM, Blogger sleeplessinoklahoma said...

Our God is an awesome God!! He never, ever gives us more than we can handle. He knows that when we ask for strength for the challenge before us He will supply just what we need. You are so very right...it never gets worse than the worst we have experienced. You are clad in God's armour for this battle. He is beside you, holding you. You will not be stricken down. You will prevail through this trial--healthy & strong for as long as you need. There are so many prayers going up for you & James. My strength is yours...yours is mine. Everyone is supporting you, giving you strength. I will continue to do that. I may not be there, but I am with you through God's abiding love. Just as you allowed me to lean on you, please lean on me. God will see to it that you feel me with you. Walking the road I know so well beside you every step. You are my heart-sister. We are joined by an unbreakable bond for we belong to an exclusive club that we did not wish to join. But we are in it...together...forever. I love you both. I pray for you daily. I so wish I could come & stay to help you. That is not God's plan right now. But I feel so close to you, & I hope you feel my love.

Dear God, hear my plea. I know you have healed James according to your will & I thank you for that. I ask in the name of your precious son Jesus that you give Bev all that she needs right now. Give her strength, give her good health, give her rest, give her peace. Please give James rest without meds. Please continue to give him a clear mind, a contented heart. I ask this in the name of Jesus for you have promised what we ask for in His name will be granted. Please surround these dear ones with your angels for protection & peace. Please take all stress from their lives. Let these be the most loving, peace filled times they have known. I beseech you dear Father.
Thank you, Thank you...in the name of Jesus, thank you!!!
Amen...& amen

At 5:22 AM, Blogger Joe & Karen said...

Dearest Butterflies, How very right you are, that we will never again be as low as our worst. Somehow we find a way to put one foot in frount of the other, I know you will do so also. Know that there is always a circle around you, you are loved.
I am so very glad James had a peaceful night. Thank you for sharing the wonderful picture, it is a moment caught that will last a lifetime.
Have a peaceful wonderful day.

At 12:52 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

amen, bev, amen.


At 4:58 PM, Blogger Betty said...

You are right.IThank God for his care which never leaves us.

At 6:10 PM, Blogger MzAriez said...

Thank you for your wonderful inspiring post.

I will keep you in my prayers and pass your name on to my mom. She creates prayer chains for people. I am always passing names onward. I guess we all need it at the end of the day.

Keep smiling.

At 3:57 AM, Blogger Dr.John said...

You have found the secret to courage. Keep trusting God. He will not fail. I keep you in my prayers.

At 2:38 AM, Blogger Joe & Karen said...

Good Morning Dear Butterflies,
Just thinking of you. I hope you, James and everyone have a beautiful peaceful day

At 9:55 AM, Blogger Mimi said...

You are a amazing soul!

I love the saying "I know God doesn't give you anything you can't handle. I just wish he did not trust me so much!"

That is a beautiful picture.

At 9:39 PM, Anonymous zingtrial said...

Hi! I Love God couse he has saved me so many times.Once I thought I would get shot,the man tried to fire his gun(pulled the trigger) and nothing,no shot,his gun was jammed.there and there I knew only God saved.He let me go.
Wish you well my friend

At 3:00 AM, Blogger Joe & Karen said...

Good Morning Dear Butterflies and James. I just wanted to wish you sweet dreams and warm snuggles, and a hundred thousand wishes...

At 4:21 AM, Blogger sleeplessinoklahoma said...

Just saying Good Morning...& I love you!! You are always in my heart, thoughts, prayers. Take care dear ones...& have a blessed day.



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