I listen to the gentle murmuring voice
Of our city, awake despite the hour
And I linger, unwilling to return
To the television world inside — droolingmonkey

Thursday, June 25, 2009

a fighter..

I used to call myself a survivor and I was proud of it.
I Have survived many things.
And it didnt happen by sheer luck.

It happened because Im a fighter.
xxx

posted by butterflies @ 9:37 PM 5 comments

Monday, June 08, 2009

Cleansing the soul



Oh what a weekend! The tears flowed so easily as if my eyes were leaking! I didnt even know why or what set me off except maybe it was the full moon and hearing that another close friend is dying of cancer and hes only 43.He went into hospital with terrible stomach pains and he has a huge inoperable tumor in his stomach and oesophegus that explained why he cant eat..hes also lost so much weight he is hardly recognisable.He looks 70.My heart aches for his parents and his brother and his many friends that love him.he has only weeks to live and they are making him comfortable.

I cried for the loves I have lost.The beautiful ppl that have gone too soon.The tears just kept on coming.Then Mum came out with a big pot of vegie soup and a gorgeous basket of baby daffidols,out too soon and forced to grow unnaturally in a hothouse,but never-the -less greatly appreciated by me.Mum always seems to know when I need her and she never lets me down..Tho now I am worried about her too.Shes been having some health problems and wont address them cos she stubborn and doesnt want to know whats wrong! I need her in my life so much and cant bear the thought of losing her too.

But there was joy too:) My grandson Ez won player of the day at soccer and was so proud of himself even though it meant that I had to wash the teams teeshirts it was wonderful.I shouted him and Jake to Mc Ds..even though I disapprove of it heh.

And I had a call from someone who I havent met yet who wants to meet up with me to talk about a future project that I may work on with her.
So in amongst the heartache,the pain and the tears,lots of really great things happened and I know that I am walking this path in my life with God at my side:)
Have a great week everyone xoxo

posted by butterflies @ 12:30 PM 6 comments

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