I listen to the gentle murmuring voice
Of our city, awake despite the hour
And I linger, unwilling to return
To the television world inside — droolingmonkey

Friday, April 29, 2005

What Price for Freedom?

I have bought our tickets to go to New Zealand!! WooHoo
We leave America on the 25th of May and it cost $4000.00.A lot of money!
Tonight we have been in the garage pricing all our belongings that we are selling before we go.Weve been putting little stickers on everything.All James tools,all of my precious things that I shipped over here 3 years ago,all of the kids pokemon games and cards.We are having a garage sale on Saturday.But...its kind of sad and exciting all at once.I have so many emotions rushing through my veins.Im so glad to be going home but it is sad to think of all we leave behind.The wonderful friends,the roads of thunder,the smells,the food,the possessions Ive collected.
Its exciting to be seeing my son,my grandson,my Mum,,,all my lovely solid lifetime mates:)..my family.
Pray for me as I make this transition.Just as you all had me in your thoughts when I left the beautiful shores of NZ 3 years ago to come to marry this man of mine who has been faithful and loved me all this time.
Freedom comes with a price.Money and time and thoughts.

posted by butterflies @ 1:58 PM 4 comments

Sunday, April 24, 2005

The Blessing

On Sunday we went to church with Phil and Millie.It was a huge church with a great chior of voices and a loud effervescent band playing,all singing loud to God.All races of people all loving each other.
The Pastor preached about how we should not judge each other.He talked of love and of understanding and of how we will all end up in heaven with God.He was a nice man and shared some funny stories.
At the end of the service he asked anyone to come forward for prayer.Anyone with a need,anyone who wanted to be annointed.Phil looked at James...James hesitated.I nodded my approval.Millie and I held onto each other while my rough biker man went forward with his brother...they slowly made their way to the front.The Pastor laid his hands on James forehead and annointed him with oil.My man and his brother cried.Me and Millie cried at this amazing event passing in front of us.James was held aloft in a sea of love.The congregation prayed for him.He felt a great peace wash over him encompassing his soul.
He was blessed by the spirit of God.It has changed him,softened him.It has made him even more loving...He is at peace with himself.

posted by butterflies @ 3:13 PM 4 comments

Saturday, April 23, 2005

A Beautiful Smile:)

We have just had an amazing week in Nth Carolina.We arrived on Friday and went out to eat at Cracker Barrow.The meal was huge! Millies son Jason and his girlfriend Angela came too and I was so excited to see all the cool things at the shop after wed eaten..oh I could have bought SO much at Cracker Barrow..its so countryish and olde worldy.I wanted a patchwork quilt I saw but there wasnt one big enough for the bed so I just longed for it instead.
The next day we went on a drive to Mount Airie.We passed through the most beautiful countryside of green and reds,blooming dogwoods,redbuds,umbrella trees and huge wild rhododenrums.The road signs pointed to places called Stoneville;)Tobaccoville,Stuartville etc.We went to Mt Pilot and walked around and I had my photo taken at Floyds Barber shop that had been there for 86 years.This is the town that the Andy Griffith show is named after and has all the things in the shops that was exactly like the TV show! There were the most gorgeous old houses in mint condition all restored..lovely porches with swings on where you can sit and watch the world go by.It felt like going back in time 50 yrs.
On the way home we called into Winston-Salem.The town is like 150 yrs old with some of the houses having the date of 1730 etc.We came across a village where theres an original bakery with the women still dressed in long dresses and aprons and bonnets! Making cakes and cookies in the original wood burning ovens.They are Moravian people.
Each night after dinner we would sit on Phil and Millies huge deck drinking wine and talking of the past and watching the horses grazing quietly near by.Thier house is a mansion!! Its huge, red brick,about 3 stories and looks like the mansions Ive always imagined the rich country folk to live in...its timeless elegance.The home could be 200 yrs old but its not.
The following day we went into Phils dental surgery and he gave me the most wonderful present Ive ever had.A beautiful white smile:)He fixed my teeth and when he showed me in the mirror,I burst out crying.Thankyu Phil from the bottom of my heart.
I have lots more stories and funny things to share but Im still exhausted from all the travelling.But I have another wonderful 2 friends.Phillip is the sweetest husband any woman could wish for and Millies like a sister.Shes funny and kind and we got on so well.We think alike so our men laughed a lot...I was sad to leave them.
But they will come to NZ and I cant wait to see them again.Cheers for the memories:)

posted by butterflies @ 10:02 AM 5 comments

Friday, April 15, 2005

Nth Carolina

Tomorrow we are going to fly to Nth Carolina to stay with James brother on his horse ranch.Phil is a dentist and hes going to do all our dental work for free:)
Hes going to take us up into the mountains in his motorhome and to the beach so I can get to see the Atlantic ocean...Ive only seen the pacific.
It will be a nice break for us and a wonderful chance for James to spend time with his brother before we go and live in NZ.
Ive packed our things today and am getting stuff ready.
Im not taking my laptop so Im not sure if I will be blogging in the next week.
I will tell you all about it when we come home.
Take care ya'll;)

posted by butterflies @ 6:25 AM 5 comments

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Wednesday nights

On wednesday nights I always go out with Elaine.We go out for dinner and have a couple of wines as well.Its good to have girlfriends.But..tonight SHE cried.She doesnt want me to leave.She says shes never had a friend like me.I told her that girlfriends are VERY important and she needs to meet and have dinner with other chicks.I love my man but theres nothing like girl talk.I didnt/wasnt prepared for Elaine to cry tho.I didnt realise that Im the best friend shes had for years.
Guys are lovely.They are funny.They are MEN.I love men but they are NOT like women.They think different to us chicks.
To all you girls out there,,,,Love your friends...your female friends.TReasure the relationship.Love your man...but take care of your girlfriends.These are mates/friends for life.

posted by butterflies @ 3:09 PM 3 comments

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Crying and crying

OMG..I cried so much last night.I sobbed and sobbed like a burst dam.It was cos on saturday night everyone kept asking James how he was...like all sadly.
We had just made love and my emotions were so raw.I was so in love with my man and i SO dont want to lose him.Hes the man I love.And it hit me that he might die.Ive forbidden him to die...hes not allowed.He tells me Im bossy so Ive made it a rule.
NO dying!!! Well I will keep him alive for as long as I can.
But I feel a lot better today.I hope and pray that we get a few more years togther cos I really need him.

posted by butterflies @ 2:28 PM 5 comments

Thursday, April 07, 2005

Pro-Life Pharmacist Refusing birth control scripts

Another Pro-Life Pharmacist in Texas Under Fire for Refusing Script

by Paul Nowak
LifeNews.com Staff Writer
July 29, 2004

Washington, DC (LifeNews.com) -- Another Texas pharmacist is receiving criticism for refusing to fill a prescription for birth control pills, a decision he says is based on his beliefs opposing abortion.

Steve Mosher, owner of the Medicine Shoppe in Fabens, refused to fill a prescription for the birth control drug for Idalia Moreno two weeks ago. Moreno has said she will file a complaint against Mosher.

"I believe the birth control pill works by causing an abortion," Mosher told ABC-7 news reporters. "I am a Christian and I believe abortion is the taking of an innocent human life, and I can't consciously and morally go along with that."

While he will not fill prescriptions for birth control pills for contraceptive purposes, Mosher said he will fill such prescriptions if the medication is to be used to treat hormonal problems.

While Mosher admits that his decision has cost him business, official discipline is not likely.

"There is nothing in the Pharmacy Act that would allow the board to discipline a pharmacist for refusing to fill a prescription on moral grounds," said Carol Fifher, Director of Enforcement for the Texas Board of Pharmacists.

As Mosher also owns his own business, he has the right to refuse service to anyone.

Ohio, Michigan, and Missouri are among the states that are attempting to pass legislation protecting the right of pharmacists and other medical professionals to refuse to provide treatments they object to on moral grounds.

Gene Rudd, associate director of the Christian Medical Association says forty-five states have passed conscience clause laws for physicians, and that protection could be extended to pharmacists -- as has been done in Illinois and South Dakota.

In February, Denton, Texas pharmacist Gene Herr and two co-workers were fired by Eckerd Corporation, after they refused to fill a woman's prescription for the "morning after pill" given to her by a doctor after she reported being raped. Herr said he believes the drug can kill an unborn child shortly after fertilization has taken place.

In March, a pro-life pharmacist at a CVS Pharmacy in North Richland Hills, Texas received criticism from abortion advocates and CVS for refusing to fill a birth control prescription.

Planned Parenthood president Gloria Feldt demanded that CVS take action against pharmacists who exercise their right to choose to refuse service based on moral convictions.

"On behalf of America's women, I want your personal guarantee that this will never happen again," Feldt said. "We want to know the immediate steps you will take to guarantee that all CVS pharmacies ensure that every patient's prescription is filled."

But pro-life groups say pharmacists should have a right to refuse.

"Health care providers, including pharmacists, should be never be forced to participate in procedures or practices to which they are morally opposed," Elizabeth Graham of Texas Right to Life told LifeNews.com. "Forcing a pharmacist to participate in abortion through prescribing a pill that could cause a chemical abortion is outrageous."

posted by butterflies @ 10:06 AM 5 comments

A Moral Judgement

I have been hearing the stories of the pharmacists who will not fill prescritions for women on birth control pills.
The women take their scripts in and sometimes the pharmacist will even take the script off them and not give it back!! Im not sure if its happening all over the country or mostly in Texas where Ive heard about it.
They even lecture the women and embarras them in front of other customers.
This is a disgusting infringement on privacy.If a doctor prescribes medication,who does the pharmacist think he his to not follow a docs orders?
Moral judgement does not belong in medicine.

posted by butterflies @ 2:42 AM 5 comments

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Bad Boys, Bad Boys

I was reading a post over at Snidges today and it reminded me of something..She was actually talking about something else but she mentioned bad boys and it gave me pause to think....
All my life Ive been attracted to *so called* bad boys.My parents used to tell me that I wasnt allowed to go down Pine Ave(a street close by) cos the boys were bad.
Now I know that all that meant was that they lived in State houses.But of course thats where I went.The guys left school before graduating and bought motorbikes.In my young days they were Triumphs and any british bikes,then harleys.I stayed at school and got picked up from school on their bikes,roaring through the streets and feeling enormous freedom.I didnt think of myself as a rebel because by that stage I had already been sexually abused by a family *friend*....I thought I was getting away from all that shit..and those guys really looked after me.They didnt expect sex from me.They didnt expect anything.They loved me for who I was and those same guys are still my best friends all these years later.
My husband and my lover is a bad boy.Hes been a biker all his life too.We click.We love to play,we have fun and we laugh at life.Hes the best lover Ive ever had and he knows how to make me happy.He brings me flowers,he tells me he loves me a hundred times a day,he will do my hair,he opens doors for me and he treats me with total respect and adoration.He is kinky,he is kind, tho hes a mean MF if he has to be.It took me a long time to find this man and weve loved each other since the day we met.
Im taking him home....home to my place.To hang out with my bad boy friends..
Last year he met them and they acted as if theyd known each other forever.
Bikers are like that.We all have a bond.We love and we respect each other.
When we meet one another,we hug.Guys hug.Us chicks hug.Its a friendship that only bikers can relate to.We are a family of people who know the road.We know the bumps and the smells as we drive by.We are all the same worldwide.We know each others needs. But the main thing is that we acknowledge each other in friendship.Bad Boys rock:)

posted by butterflies @ 12:10 PM 10 comments

Sunday, April 03, 2005

The Pope Dies

Although Im not Catholic,I feel sad about the death of Pope John Paul.
He was a very loving man who rose from Poland to become one of the worlds
highest spiritual leaders of my time.
I dont agree with his ideals and philosophies but he was the Pope.
Rest gently John Paul..Im sure the angels are serenading you in heaven:)

posted by butterflies @ 9:33 AM 0 comments

Friday, April 01, 2005

Terri Shiavos gone home

Terri has finally gone home to be with God.
May her death be a lesson to all of us.Make your wishes known
while you are alive.
R.I.P now Terri...be free with the angels.

posted by butterflies @ 5:50 AM 0 comments

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