I listen to the gentle murmuring voice
Of our city, awake despite the hour
And I linger, unwilling to return
To the television world inside — droolingmonkey

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Seasons of life.

Winter is coming there and summers coming here..Things change with the seasons.

My friend Ian has finally gone to sleep.Hes in a deep coma so its now a matter of hours and days.
I remember it so well with James..Ian is very peaceful and hes just waiting for God to call his name out.

Every day now I am just praying for Ian that his transition is a smooth ride..Hes such a cool guy
but his addiction to alcohol was ..to him...worth dying for. Its his choice.

I went into town today and splurged on some new foundation, a nice indigo blue eye pencil and some new blush.My makeup is SO old..some Ive had since I was in OKC with James!! I always get new mascaras though.
Im happy today..even tho my tummy hurts and I cant eat much LOL..but hey..maybe I was eating too much and it was just my body telling me I don’t need that much.

Every day life goes on..

A friend rang me from his work today and said they were doing a poll.
Asked me ....**would you rather be beautiful and have no money or ugly and rich***
Of course I answered beautiful but poor.... and I was the ONLY one that said that!!
Everyone else said theyd rather be rich.I told him beauty to me means that your soul shines from within..you smile.

Jake just informed me I spent 156 today (he was looking at the reciepts on the bench) what price vanity? oh well..
Makes me feel better!! And James would have told me to go and buy myself something !!!

After looking at the face of death once again,it just reminds me to LIVE!!

Oh I couldnt help myself putting another pic of James and me up again :)

posted by butterflies @ 9:50 PM 7 comments

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Saying goodbye..

I got to say a final goodbye to a friend today..
I blogged about him a few weeks ago when the docs gave him 2 wks to live.
Today we talked for the last time.
I thanked him for being such a funny guy who made us all laugh..
I told him that it was an honor to have known him.

He said Ill see ya at the funeral!! LOL!

His mouth is weak now and hes having trouble focusing.he wakes after sleeping 12 hrs
only to go straight back to sleep. I told him his journey has begun.I said have fun babe and Ill see ya in heaven:)

Hes waiting in the queue now until God calls his name.

posted by butterflies @ 10:49 PM 6 comments

Monday, September 07, 2009

Awesome weekend

To be with the ppl that you love the most in the world is awesome!
On saturday me and Jake went and picked up Ez and drove an hour and a half in beautiful sunshine to the lake districts by Rotorua.
Mum had a timeshare right on the lake so we spent the night with her.
Ez and Jake rowed out on the lake in the peddle boats and we walked and talked and shared so much..I was completely in love with the scenery and the weather.

That night we went and had a delicious meal in the restuarant..There was a roaring fire and we sat by the huge picture window watching the full moon (the moon that James gave to me) shining down on the water..I was so glad that we went on a night with a new moon because it meant that James was with all of us,the ppl that he loved.

Ezzie was on top form and spoke so eloquiently of his favourite things,what he was going to be when he grew up and he had us all captivated..Of course me and jake couldnt sleep and found ourselves down in the lounge at 4am with Jake taking pics of the lake and the twinkling stars.
I had a fabulous weekend and its made memories for all of us for yrs to come.
Im happy and no-one can take it from me :)

posted by butterflies @ 11:42 AM 2 comments

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