Tuesday, July 24, 2007

The final chapter

Mum and I had a very long trip to Oklahoma and it was wonderful to see all the Taylor family again and my beautiful daughters..
The service was amazing.Matthew,who is the national president of the Covenant Christian Motorcycle Ministries took the service with great integrity and honor.It wasnt sad,but filled with love as we remembered a wonderful husband,father,brother and son.James presence was with us and there was tremendous love surrounding us all.God was keeping us in His hands.Matthew was funny,loving,strong and such a blessing to us as were the friends he bought along.My mother told Matthew that she didnt really like bikers til she met James and then Matthew;) She told me he was very handsome heh...My sister-in -love Sleepless spoke so eloquently with words straight from God..It was a beautiful day and I was happy.James final chapter is over.Hes resting peacefully.
I am now in Boston.Its gorgeous up here.The houses are quaint and old worldy and the neighbourhood im staying in is clean and safe.The coffee shop is across the road and is the local meeting place for the crowd of bikers who are all clean and sober now.Its a good place to meet instead of a bar.I feel happy here.I have laughed so much.Ive been riding every day and night...God has blessed me with wonderful,caring supportive friends and nothing will ever destroy me again.I feel strong again,full of life and Ive put on 5lbs!! Blimmen American food!!
I miss my Jake and Ezzie so much but feel happy knowing that I have given Jake my cottage so he can relax and enjoy cooking and living in a nice place.
Its been a full on couple weeks,Im tired still but elated.Its all good:)

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Saturday, July 07, 2007

A new beginning for me....

This is my last saturday night in New Zealand.On Tuesday I begin my big journey..I will fly to Oklahoma via LA,to take James ashes home to his family.Its just over 4 mths since James died and I will return him to his family,just as he returned me to mine.Its a sad time but a time filled with hope.Its a new beginning for me.After the memorial service,I will go to a concert with some friends,drink a little red wine and have a toast to the man who taught me how to live.He showed me that there is more to life than material possessions.That as long as you can be in the wind,you are alive.I will always be grateful to him for that.
Now it is time for ME..after 2 yrs of mourning and sadness,Im going to party and have some fun.Im going to meet some new and some old friends.Im going to travel to all the states I havent seen.Im going to laugh and dance.Im going to be happy again.Im will be alive and riding once again.Life is so good:)
I know that life is all about what we make it.If we want to be happy we must first be happy.Like attracts like. Smile and someone will smile back..love and it will be returned.
Im excited,Im sad,Im scared but Im alive!! And Im going to make the most of it every day God gives me!!

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