I listen to the gentle murmuring voice
Of our city, awake despite the hour
And I linger, unwilling to return
To the television world inside — droolingmonkey

Monday, April 27, 2009

A struggle

Its so long since I blogged!
Ive been busy but thats no excuse.,,well Im trying to keep busy.
Im lonely.
There Ive said it.Its doesnt look so nice written down but at least its out there.

Of course Im happy with my life..My son has just got a scholarship for his fees
at Uni and my grandson has been here with us for a week almost.
We went out to dinner on sat night with a friend who was here from Japan.
He bought teeshirts and wine and chocolates:)

But nothing fills the empty void inside of me..I miss being in love.

posted by butterflies @ 5:28 PM 7 comments

Monday, April 13, 2009


This is the light of my life..the sunshine of my soul.
My grandson Ez..(10 yrs old) with the card he made for me on his dads computer.Hes very clever.
Him and his father are the reason for my existence.
I love them.

posted by butterflies @ 10:08 PM 5 comments

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Today I realised something..
Life really IS what you make it.
Now Im totally focused again.I know what I need and what I want.
I also know what I DONT want.
Maybe thats the thing I learnt today.
There are some things in my life that Ive gone through that I can NEVER repeat.

James death and even my divorce(after 21 yrs of marriage) before that have been so much grief to bear.I have cried and wept over all kinds of things but those were the worst.And neither of them I had any control over.
And Im all done crying!
As they say in Boston...Im all set thanks!!!
And I DO have control:)
Wow..Im back in the driving seat!

posted by butterflies @ 7:51 PM 4 comments

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