I listen to the gentle murmuring voice
Of our city, awake despite the hour
And I linger, unwilling to return
To the television world inside — droolingmonkey

Friday, July 31, 2009

My Warrior

This is my beautiful handsome warrior who keeps me safe.

Just as his dad always does too.

My son is raising a great son :)

I love my boys.

posted by butterflies @ 10:27 PM 6 comments

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Its happened:)

Wow I cant believe how GOOD I feel:)
You know how when you take a bandaid off and you see that the wound has healed?
Theres a faint scar but the weeping festering sore has gone?
Thats happened to me! I never seem to heal but this time its worked.
I dont know what Ive applied to it or how its occured but my faith and determination have finally paid off for me.
I feel the best I have since James died..I can kiss his pic like I always did but I dont cry now.I can look at the moon and say thankyou baby.
I can feel a breeze and know that hes still there.Right beside me...the angel on my shoulder.Taking care of me and whispering in my ear.
Im not broken!! Oh its such a relief....
I dont feel scared anymore.Im not worried..Im in such a good place:)
And it only happened because I trust God to keep me safe and He did.
Im excited again! Can you tell ;)

posted by butterflies @ 7:51 PM 11 comments

Saturday, July 11, 2009

I can SEE

After a big hiccup at the beginning of the week that almost sent me plummeting,I have gotten stronger and wiser and I feel SO much better.
Sometimes Ive been blind because I did not wish to see.It was not an easy thing to always face the truth even when its staring at me.
But each day I am further away from the thing that was dragging me down and holding me back,I find that I no longer need blinkers on.
I am able to see straight ahead..to once again long for the truth that only God can give..and its sets you free:)
There is nothing to look back on except for beautiful memories.Im abolishing the sadness and embracing the wonder.
I can see xoxox

posted by butterflies @ 4:31 PM 7 comments

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